Random random stuff lalalala

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I think u are developing a negative attitude toward life, and honestly u sound a bit discouraged. There has to be something that’s holding u back from doing what u know ur good at doing. It may be laziness and a ‘don’t care attitude’, but when did it start? What was going on in ur life that affected u while the change started? U need to figure out what happened or what u felt to make u change so dramatically…

Did someone/something u had so much faith in just turn u down and made u feel like there was no point in caring anymore? Did u lose all confidence in urself and don’t know what to do to get it back? U said u want to care… That means u know deep down, subconsciously what’s bothering u, and the only way to solve ur problem u have to dive deep within urself, find it and bring it to surface. Tell someone u care about what ur problem is, let it out, seek advice and comfort. Find a teacher or someone u can talk to about this.

Don’t make expectations on anybody in life because they may not ba able to live up to them. U can only make expectations on urself. Push urself to be stronger everyday, because then u will care and feel happy with urself… Develop a strong relationship with the person whos taking care of u… And do ur work in class. Push urself because if u stop now, then u may lose the chance for ur good future. Don’t let whats holding u back now cause u to suffer for the rest of ur life. What ever this negative thing is that’s eating u up inside is like a parasite and u need to get rid of it immediately and fight it. Don’t be weak and let it ruin u. I could tell ur strong because u haven’t given up yet and ur seeking help. U’ll get help sweety, I promise, and I’ll pray for u because God loves u. He does, and u know it deep down that some one loves u. Its God.

If u cant go to a psychologist go to a teacher u can build a bond with, and stay with them after calss and chat.. Or write them a note about what u feel or what’s going on with u. Don’t be afraid to reach out for help in the right places babe. I wish u the best and I know ur life will be better soon…. And u’ll win everything back, but first the most important thing u need to win is this inner battle. That means u gotta target the main source of it.